
i have learned in life that the word friend is something strong, and the loyalty you may have to one they might not have to you…. and that when things happen in life and you grow up that you may lose friends, and also gain wonderful people that will become friends…. the reason for this entry is because this week has been one of those learning curves…. one of my best friends (and i don’t use that term lightly) Dave, as some of you may have met him when he has went to sardos with me, you may also know him by the nickname i gave him “big guy”…. well he went to jail not too long ago, for something he had nothing to do with, and i had bailed him out and when he went back to court they raised his bail and took him back into custody…. i am sad about this and there is nothing i can do for him now except wait and write him & visit him & help him when he gets out…. i have an extremely closed circut of friends that are like my family, and we would all do the same for eachother no matter what…. so basically this one goes out to “big guy” i just want you to know we are here for you & we love you!!!! now onto the note of loosing friends…. also this week i have lost a friend….. i had a friend for 8 years & at one point we were really close…. as the years have progressed we have always been in eachothers lives, but have grown apart due to life & relationships…. but no matter what i was always there for her when she needed me, and i never asked her for anything…. not even help because the one time i did, her boyfriend was more important than me…. i said ok and got over it, but i never put anyone or anything infront of her when she called on me for help…… and now that i have been modeling and started my buisness ventures she wanted to do what i’m doing and i told her i would help her get into it, but everytime i had something set up for her she would flake…. so i blew it off that i was mad…. i really feel i have never done anything wrong to this girl, and i have always been there for her, but the other day she freaked out on me for no reason in my eyes cause i haven’t even seen her in 2 months….. and that just happened to be the final straw for me, so i have just lost a friend due to what i feel was jealousy because i do have something going for myself & i am and will be somebody more than i am now…… p.s. sorry for venting like i said i am always learning new things